finally
finished all the presentation. started to live with exams and papaers.
i worried about the papers and exams a lot last weeks, and can not even start to do it. after one very busy day, chatting with profs and finding informations in the library, i think i can face them. when i started doing those works, i feel calm. a bit tired but calm. i cannot explain why but just a feeling.
21 years old. have to learn to finish all of the works by myself. i still believe that i'm always be above the average. being the smart and hard working half in class. although i feel weak some time, especially when i compare myself with the winner of the game of life. well, i think i still cannot get over the failure of a-level and ce exam. i still care too much of being graduate one year later then the normal students of my year. it may get better after my graduation of bachelor. hope so.
but at least, i start to learn that it is not others looking down on me, but i looking down on myself. i would try my best to be the best. still, i want to be the best, the superior group in the socity.
posted by Stargazer @ 星期四, 12月 01, 2005
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2 Comments:
21 years old, much mature, know the most important thing in life is not look down yourself, no matter how the others looked on you. The most bitter and hurtful thing is you dispise yourself. Know that everyone has his/her particular strength, great to know thatand i feel proud on you, a "kid" at an age of 21 know the philosophy of life. Thank to God.
However, no matter it is God or your Pa or Mum, your are our very very special one and we love you always.
Vienna, still in sweet dream? I had a dream last night, the scene is our tour in North Europe, you are still a small kid with height just above my waist. Still, you have little change in yhour inner mind, kind, sincere, talented but lack of confidence; proud but easily influenced by close peers; appears to be let go always but in the depth of the mind much barriers existed. Still you are Vienna, mature a bit ans probably know what you need to adjust in reference to the surrounding environment. Superman and Kwok will have a retreat for 2 days, just like to share with you give yourself some silent time and pace to get in touch with yourself. You may observe something you may not be awared in the busy time; and love yourself more! God bless
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